& I Don't Even Know Where to Start.

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Someone could be cool and plant a money tree in my backyard.

I hate decisions.

Crystal Castles and Other Pre-Adulthood Crisis'

Does anyone else have the issue where they don't know where they are in life at all. I mean, given I'm only 19 and still in college, but really, not feeling like I'm doing too much with my life at the moment. Kind of a lazy, borderline pointless existence. That's a pretty bleak way of putting it, but it's what I feel. Then again it might have to do with the music I've been listening to. I wonder if there is a study out there on how different types of music effect your moods.

If that is the case Crystal Castles probably isn't helping me too much. Although I have taken an unusual liking to them for a dance band. I'm like a crack head is to coke when it comes to synthesizers. Which is kind of an embarrassing thing to admit given the fact that I'm fairly well educated musically. And I know that synthesizers are easily the cheapest instrument that get kids all worked up. But that the same time I can at least say they're being used differently now than how they used to be back in the 80's.

Meh whatever. Even though I hate this feeling it's kind of a love hate relationship. I mean I don't really enjoy being all moody and depressed, but I do enjoy the abstract thinking it can bring on. It's hard to explain. Actually it's totally impossible to explain. It's kind of like my brain turns into pancake batter and I start seeing things for what they are without any opinion on it. Like my brain just absorbs it, but doesn't process it and take opinion. I know, Devin's on drugs. Well not really. I probably just have some sort of chemical imbalance in me which would require a doctor to actually listen to me for five minutes rather than prescribe me to ambien/lunesta/whatever the hell is in the little box sitting next to me... Rozerem? It's suppose to reset my binary clock. Spleeping pills and this is suppose to fix me. BUT sleeping pills have stopped working on me and my mom really hates me taking them anyways so they randomly disappear from time to time.

Shit. I'm going to go listen to more Crystal Castles and not sleep.


It's kind of weird thinking the girl in this band was born in 1988. Like I was born in 1989... Damn, I'm really doing nothing with my life.

Why? WHY WHY WHY?!

Why does Obama take so much crap from pro-life groups? I mean okay, obviously Obama is pro-choice and yeah yeah yeah bad Obama he's an evil liberal. That's not what I'm hear to talk... or question about. Okay, so Obama is bad because he's pro-choice, but Bush was good because he was pro-life. But let me check me records... oh what's this? Throughout all eight years of Bush's administration you could get an abortion? Wait what the? and Bush wasn't the bad man Obama is? I mean Bush only took away our constitutional rights that were given to us by our forefathers with the Patriot Act so it's not like he could have managed to ban abortion as well, that would be over doing it. I mean Bush didn't even do anything about abortion. and it's not like the Obama administration is going around knocking on pregnant womens doors soliciting abortions. So what makes them different? Neither is pushing a policy, so on the politic field they're equals. Ideologically, well they're polar opposites. But lucky for us the government is run based solely on one persons ideology, hence congress. So what the heck conservative America? Aren't there evil doer's that we need to smoke out of their holes? Or is it now that Yosemite Sam is out of office we need to stop focusing on National Security and start focusing on every single flaw Obama has, even if it is totally irrelevant to what has happened to this country in the past eight years? I mean the economy is crap, but we'd rather yell at Obama over his personal opinion which effects us in no way, shape, or form. Smart. It's okay to spend 1.5 million dollars on a rocket to blow up an apartment complex that "might" have a terrorist somewhere in it, but it's not okay to abort a baby in order to save a child that will be brought into the world unwanted?

I mean honestly I'm liberal, and that's never changing. But I definitely try to see things from the other side and it's not clicking here. Same thing with gay marriage. Well the Bible says.... Well the Constitution says... I mean really. It's the first sentence in the First Amendment of the thing. No matter how ADD you are you can make it through the first sentence of the First Amendment. CONGRESS SHALL MAKE NO LAW RESPECTING AN ESTABLISHMENT OF RELIGION.

Well... there goes that whole the Bible says argument. People that are fighting gay marriage are going to be looked back on the same as the way we look back on the people protesting against the Civil Rights Movement. I'm sorry to say it but it's true. It's a movement that is building momentum and it'll only be so long before we look back going... and why were they protesting this?

I mean really. Am I the only person that hears Fox news and starts to feel like I'm going to have a brain aneurysm? They spend more time Obama bashing than actually giving me news. I mean have some journalistic decency, it's not like CNN sat there taking shot at Bush for eight years, you have to give them sort of a chance. I just don't get it anymore. I'm a man who's country is in chaos, and there seems to be no understanding in either side.

Old Abe said it best, "A house divided against itself cannot stand."

You Know What Sucks

• Being depressed.
  
• Work.
  
• School.
  
• Finals.
  
• Papers.
• Grades.
  
• Shitty management.
  
• Small job markets.
  
• Getting caught.
  
• Self induced lies.
  
• Saturns.
  
• Oil changes.
  
• June & July.
  
• Forgetting to do stuff you said you would.
• Two more work days.
• Lack of motivation.
• The Mariners.
• My hair.
• Growing from a small into a medium.
• & terrible, terrible, professors.

That about covers how today went.
Lets hope for better conditions tomorrow.
My forecast; Sleeping in until 10 or 11, followed by a pointless class session, leading later in the evening to frantic homework and study session, finishing with a good solid four hours of pushing shopping cart. Shit.

Someone please come do this to Fred Meyer.

Splat.

Wow. I like how now that I finally spent the time to make a blog, I have nothing to write about. Fun.

So the Mariners beat the Red Sox?

http://www.city-data.com/forum/seattle-area/386485-more-red-sox-fans-seattle-than.html

Shits weak. I love the Red Sox, but turning your back on the home town team... eh... questionable. Especially with the fact that no one would care if the Red Sox sucked.

I don't know why I'm so overly into baseball this year. Usually it's kind of something that just passes by, but this year I'm overly active with watching baseball. Maybe I'm getting old or something. It always seems to me like old people are the ones that sit around watching sports all day. Great, I've hit my peak at the age of 19.

Two months left at the hell hole I call a job. It's really weird thinking I've worked there three years. I mean that job has out lasted relationships. I'm better at working than keeping relationships. Another great. I'm better at doing a job that requires no brain power than maintaining basic social interaction. Man, I need to stop knit picking my life like this. It's depressing.

Oh well.

One more week until Sasquatch. I'm kind of bummed that I didn't do my research more. I thought the line up totally sucked and now that I'm looking at it again with all the new music that gets added to my library daily, there are a lot of good bands! The Dodo's, M83, The Walkmen. Well that's just Sunday. Eh. I saved myself some money I guess. But seriously, where the hell is MGMT and why on earth are they boycotting Washington. They played that stupid thing The End puts on in Marymore Park like two years ago. i think were due for another visit boys, you've kind of gotten a lot bigger and people kind of want to see you live.


That's another depressing thing. They act like an indie band but they're not. They are like Panic at the Disco or Fall Out Boy, but on acid and with a synthesizer. They're signed to Universal Records and had never released a CD prior to the one that's out. But, music is music... I guess... Sort of. I'll be curious to see what there sophomore album sounds like... If it ever even gets made.

It hurts to know I'm missing this...



But It's bomb I'm seeing this...